Is it possible to be sad and happy at the same time? i am so very sad that we are selling everything that will fetch more than 20 dollars, including gifts that we had got for the kids. i am sad that we are running up the credit cards that we just paid down, just so we can eat. i am sad that my husband has to work 6 days a week, 12-16 hours a day just so that we can barely get by.
i am happy that through all these struggles and the sacrifices we have made, Robert and i are closer than ever. We have been through so much in the 11 years we have been together, the last 2 years have by far been the most difficult. Instead of tearing us apart, we are so much stronger and i am thankful for that. i am happy that Robert likes his job, it makes it so much easier to deal with him having to work so much. i am happy that our children are doing better every day. i have hid most of our troubles from them but of course they know that something is up when we keep selling our stuff and it just melts my heart when my little girl gives me her dollar she has been saving and tells me i can use it to buy food for us. i am so happy that my sweet boy Kevin is doing so much better since we got back into our own place again. His stuttering was getting so bad and now it is back to just a little bit here and there; i am sure now that his stuttering is because of stress which i think is easier to treat. Even Cameron is acting happier than i have seen him since we had to leave Fallon.
i am happy that i have a little sister who is always willing to help me if she can and gives her full support, never judging what i have to do in order to make it and never judging the mistakes i have made to get to where i am now.