Life Choices: Putting the Pieces Together by Moreo, Judi/ Goodwin, Bea (Google Affiliate Ad)
i have never been good at keeping up with this blog and even forgot about it for a long while. Today i am making changes to the layout, title, and what the content will be. This blog will become a journal of sorts for me to work on my therapy and get my emotions and anger out in the open so i can finally heal.
The original direction for this blog was to keep it "vanilla", however, i am done hiding. i will keep my blog rated G, but i won't be censoring myself anymore in concern to the type of marriage that i have.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
So much can happen in a year
It has been over a year since I posted on my blog so I thought it might be helpful for me to update and try to get back into writing.
I'll try to keep this update short;
May 2011 we were heading across country to move to Nevada. It was a long trip and we were looking forward to starting over and being near my family. Along the way Robert got me a dog for my birthday. We later had to take her to the shelter after she bit my daughter.
We made it to Nevada and got settled into our new house, it was nice to be out of apartments after 9 years. For the first time ever we have a yard and a garage, it was really nice. We went and got the kids all new beds and got another dog from CA. Living the dream.
My cousin went missing in August and was later determined to be dead although he was never found. It has taken a toll on the family and I have struggled with it a lot.
Right before Christmas we were informed that Robert was being laid off. Not what you want to hear around the holidays but oh well. We had a nice Christmas and new year. I continued to struggle with everything and went through a bunch of meds trying to find something that works and all of them made me gain a ton of weight which in itself didn't help any. Finally my doctor gave up and sent me to a specialist and he diagnosed me with PTSD and Bipolar disorder. I have been on new meds and getting better.
Soon we will have to move again, I just hope we don't have to go too far away, I like being able to visit my family sooner than once every 3 years. So that is basically the last year. I would like to try and get into writing once a week
We made it to Nevada and got settled into our new house, it was nice to be out of apartments after 9 years. For the first time ever we have a yard and a garage, it was really nice. We went and got the kids all new beds and got another dog from CA. Living the dream.
Right before Christmas we were informed that Robert was being laid off. Not what you want to hear around the holidays but oh well. We had a nice Christmas and new year. I continued to struggle with everything and went through a bunch of meds trying to find something that works and all of them made me gain a ton of weight which in itself didn't help any. Finally my doctor gave up and sent me to a specialist and he diagnosed me with PTSD and Bipolar disorder. I have been on new meds and getting better.
Soon we will have to move again, I just hope we don't have to go too far away, I like being able to visit my family sooner than once every 3 years. So that is basically the last year. I would like to try and get into writing once a week
Friday, February 25, 2011
Live, learn, and try to remember to update the blog every now and then lol
So much has changed since Robert got back from his deployment last year. We are all so happy and although there is still a lot of stress with school and preparing to move, life is good.
I was looking back at old videos and pictures and was sad that my babies are all growing up. There is so much that I would have done differently with each of the kids, if only I could go back and fix things. They are happy so I guess I didn't do too bad.
I am learning to fit everything together and make things work with school, the kids' school, Robert's work and taking care of everything at home.
I was put on some new medication to help me sleep and for my panic attacks and vertigo, it has helped a ton but I still wish I didn't need it. I hate having to take meds on a daily basis.
My rabbits went to their new home almost 2 weeks ago. I am still very sad about it and miss them so much. Cameron's allergy problems have almost dissipated so I feel better about my decision to re-home my fur-babies. It was the right choice for my family, even if it broke my heart to do it.
After being with Robert for 9 years it is hard to believe that every day just keeps getting better. We have made many mistakes but have learned and grown from them and are better for them.
I guess that's it for the update. Maybe I will remember to get back to this and update it sometime before next year lol.
I was looking back at old videos and pictures and was sad that my babies are all growing up. There is so much that I would have done differently with each of the kids, if only I could go back and fix things. They are happy so I guess I didn't do too bad.
I am learning to fit everything together and make things work with school, the kids' school, Robert's work and taking care of everything at home.
I was put on some new medication to help me sleep and for my panic attacks and vertigo, it has helped a ton but I still wish I didn't need it. I hate having to take meds on a daily basis.
My rabbits went to their new home almost 2 weeks ago. I am still very sad about it and miss them so much. Cameron's allergy problems have almost dissipated so I feel better about my decision to re-home my fur-babies. It was the right choice for my family, even if it broke my heart to do it.
After being with Robert for 9 years it is hard to believe that every day just keeps getting better. We have made many mistakes but have learned and grown from them and are better for them.
I guess that's it for the update. Maybe I will remember to get back to this and update it sometime before next year lol.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Busy busy
Since I was reminded that I still have a blog I decided I should update it. There is so much going on all the time I sometimes wonder how I manage to do anything. Robert is still deployed, we can't wait till he is home again. The kids are doing good and grow every day. Their schooling is going good. They are not doing as much as I would like but it is summer so I am not going to stress too much about it. I am trying to get Cameron to a point where he will like learning again so I don't want to push too hard. He is doing great with his reading.
The rabbits are doing good, they are getting to where they will tolerate each other but not for very long.
My schooling is ok. I have not been doing as good as I would like but I am passing so that is good.
And as for my pictures, I have come to the decision that I suck at portrait photography and have found that my true passion comes from photographing nature and I would love to get into urban photography as well. I have started an etsy shop but not really getting into that yet, it is just something I wanted to try out and see what it would look like.
That's about it.
The rabbits are doing good, they are getting to where they will tolerate each other but not for very long.
My schooling is ok. I have not been doing as good as I would like but I am passing so that is good.
And as for my pictures, I have come to the decision that I suck at portrait photography and have found that my true passion comes from photographing nature and I would love to get into urban photography as well. I have started an etsy shop but not really getting into that yet, it is just something I wanted to try out and see what it would look like.
That's about it.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Life Happens
So much has happened since my last update, I don't really know where to start. I have been working on getting my dental work taken care of. That is almost done but with recent events I had to put the remainder of work on hold due to lack of funds. My school has been going ok. I have been getting straight As.
As most everyone knows, Cameron has been struggling with school. He has been failing and the school had informed me that he wasn't going to advance to second grade. I set up a meeting with the school to see about getting him some help. He had a math and reading tutor and started to improve. He has always dealt with bullies and I had to pull him off the school bus and drive him to and from school so he wouldn't get beat up on the bus. The trouble still continued at school and Cameron had been getting more and more angry. This last school year has really changed him. He was always angry, rarely smiled, constantly fighting with his sibblings and complaining even when I try to take them out somewhere fun. It was very sad and difficult to watch my boy grow darker and darker.
There was an incident at school and Cameron was suspended for a week and had a hearing about whether or not he would be going back. The police were also called. After my talk with the cops, I decided to hire a lawyer to protect Cameron from the school and the police. Things went well with the school, they let Cameron back in. Normally that would be a good thing but as soon as he went back, he got in trouble for fighting. And then there was another incident the next day. So I decided we had enough. My boy had suffered enough. I pulled him out of school and have been homeschooling him along with Kevin and Emily.
Homeschooling is the best decision I have ever made. Granted we have not been doing it long, but so far things are much better. Cameron's attitude is improving every day. He no longer has to fear getting kicked and hit and have his backpack taken from him and everything else those horrible kids would do to him. So far we are doing a combination of Abeka and unschooling. We are taking it easy on the structured stuff for now and mainly focusing on unschooling with light book work. I am gradually getting Cameron back into wanting to learn so we are trying to make it as fun as possible. I am also doing a unique schedule with the kids. We are doing 3 days on, 1 day off for 2 months and then they get 1 week off. This will go on all year, with the exception of holidays or sick days. I may change things later if this doesn't work. I just like the freedom to have that choice.
So for the legal stuff, things haven't been going too badly. I haven't had to give the lawyer more money which is great. Haven't heard from the police so that is probably a good sign as well.
Robert is still deployed and doing as well as one can be who is stuck out in the middle of the ocean.
The kids miss their daddy and want him to come home but it has been easier this time around. They are getting older and are starting to understand what their daddy is doing and why he can't come home for months at a time.
The rabbits are doing good. Still not friends, although I have not really tried to bond them yet. I want to wait until after Hershey is spayed before I really try to bond them. Velvet will be a year old next month. I can't believe she is already a year old. Hershey will be 6 months old and ready to go in for her spay beginning of May. I hope her surgery goes better than Velvet's did.
So that about sums it up. Life has been hectic, I had the flu recently and the house work has not been getting done as much as it should but I have been enjoying having all my kids home and the freedom to do what I want with them. I love my kids and as enfuriating and annoying as they can be at times, I love having them home with me. I love watching them learn new things. Kevin is doing basic math and I am so proud of him. Emily is working on her numbers and is doing really well. Cameron seems to have mastered telling time, we are slowly working on math and writing because it is his sore subject and he really dislikes it. So I am trying to make things fun for him to hopefully instill a love of learning.
Well I think I better end this and get to cleaning up some so I can go to bed. I will hopefully be back in the near future for more posts so I don't have to do these long updates lol.
As most everyone knows, Cameron has been struggling with school. He has been failing and the school had informed me that he wasn't going to advance to second grade. I set up a meeting with the school to see about getting him some help. He had a math and reading tutor and started to improve. He has always dealt with bullies and I had to pull him off the school bus and drive him to and from school so he wouldn't get beat up on the bus. The trouble still continued at school and Cameron had been getting more and more angry. This last school year has really changed him. He was always angry, rarely smiled, constantly fighting with his sibblings and complaining even when I try to take them out somewhere fun. It was very sad and difficult to watch my boy grow darker and darker.
There was an incident at school and Cameron was suspended for a week and had a hearing about whether or not he would be going back. The police were also called. After my talk with the cops, I decided to hire a lawyer to protect Cameron from the school and the police. Things went well with the school, they let Cameron back in. Normally that would be a good thing but as soon as he went back, he got in trouble for fighting. And then there was another incident the next day. So I decided we had enough. My boy had suffered enough. I pulled him out of school and have been homeschooling him along with Kevin and Emily.
Homeschooling is the best decision I have ever made. Granted we have not been doing it long, but so far things are much better. Cameron's attitude is improving every day. He no longer has to fear getting kicked and hit and have his backpack taken from him and everything else those horrible kids would do to him. So far we are doing a combination of Abeka and unschooling. We are taking it easy on the structured stuff for now and mainly focusing on unschooling with light book work. I am gradually getting Cameron back into wanting to learn so we are trying to make it as fun as possible. I am also doing a unique schedule with the kids. We are doing 3 days on, 1 day off for 2 months and then they get 1 week off. This will go on all year, with the exception of holidays or sick days. I may change things later if this doesn't work. I just like the freedom to have that choice.
So for the legal stuff, things haven't been going too badly. I haven't had to give the lawyer more money which is great. Haven't heard from the police so that is probably a good sign as well.
Robert is still deployed and doing as well as one can be who is stuck out in the middle of the ocean.
The kids miss their daddy and want him to come home but it has been easier this time around. They are getting older and are starting to understand what their daddy is doing and why he can't come home for months at a time.
The rabbits are doing good. Still not friends, although I have not really tried to bond them yet. I want to wait until after Hershey is spayed before I really try to bond them. Velvet will be a year old next month. I can't believe she is already a year old. Hershey will be 6 months old and ready to go in for her spay beginning of May. I hope her surgery goes better than Velvet's did.
So that about sums it up. Life has been hectic, I had the flu recently and the house work has not been getting done as much as it should but I have been enjoying having all my kids home and the freedom to do what I want with them. I love my kids and as enfuriating and annoying as they can be at times, I love having them home with me. I love watching them learn new things. Kevin is doing basic math and I am so proud of him. Emily is working on her numbers and is doing really well. Cameron seems to have mastered telling time, we are slowly working on math and writing because it is his sore subject and he really dislikes it. So I am trying to make things fun for him to hopefully instill a love of learning.
Well I think I better end this and get to cleaning up some so I can go to bed. I will hopefully be back in the near future for more posts so I don't have to do these long updates lol.
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