The little things in life

i was unpacking and came across a super soaker that we had got for the kids last summer that never got used. The kids were all outside playing so i filled up the water gun and went outside to get the kids. It was a nice break to play and laugh with my kids. i feel like it has been forever since i have just had fun with them and not worried about all the depressing stuff going on in our lives. It was a wonderful break we all needed; especially me. i have had a horrible time putting on the brave face for my kids. i don't like them to know how much we are struggling. i know nothing will ever be as it was again but i am optimistic that we can make this work. i have to be.