Neglecting my blog again

i really need to get better at this. :( Not a whole lot has happened since May, perhaps that is why i haven't been writing. Things have settled down with the house for the most part. We have had a couple more floods but for the most part, it is ok. We are having car trouble, both our vehicles require a good bit of work and the parts aren't cheap, i figure we won't have much of a Christmas because of everything. That doesn't even bother me. Not sure why. Normally i would be heartbroken over not being able to buy anything for my kids but now i just feel numb.

The kids started public school one month ago and are doing ok. They are a little slow to adjust but they are learning and doing better. We started the process to get Kevin into speech therapy, still need to work on getting Cameron into special ed. classes so he can get some more help. He is improving but is still very behind.

i guess that is it for now. Hopefully i will be back in the near future to write again :D If i can remember lol.

A new baby

Finally some calm after the storm that has been life for the last year or so....i got an early birthday present from Robert; a sweet little puppy. We named him Loki since we have Thor and they are adopted brothers :) i think it fits.

Motivation

i am having the hardest time finding the motivation to finish putting this house together. It has taken so long and with all the problems we have come across along the way, i just don't want to deal with it anymore. Of course that gets me more depressed cause it's still not done. i got the main living areas finished (mostly) and i am completely burned out. i wish i could just stay in bed or glued to the couch. i think i need to go back to making up daily goals for myself, it helped me get things done before so maybe it will help this time around too.

Thor, emily and charlie

Thor, emily and charlie, a photo by elaine.pepsicola81 on Flickr.

My dogs and my baby girl <3 Everyone is so happy that we have our own space again.

Lots of thanks to my sweet sister for getting my kids their Easter baskets and filling this year. I wasn't able to get them myself.

Lots of thanks to my sweet sister for getting my kids their Easter baskets and filling this year. I wasn't able to get them myself., a photo by elaine.pepsicola81 on Flickr.

Thanks*

Is it possible to be sad and happy at the same time? i am so very sad that we are selling everything that will fetch more than 20 dollars, including gifts that we had got for the kids. i am sad that we are running up the credit cards that we just paid down, just so we can eat. i am sad that my husband has to work 6 days a week, 12-16 hours a day just so that we can barely get by.

i am happy that through all these struggles and the sacrifices we have made, Robert and i are closer than ever. We have been through so much in the 11 years we have been together, the last 2 years have by far been the most difficult. Instead of tearing us apart, we are so much stronger and i am thankful for that. i am happy that Robert likes his job, it makes it so much easier to deal with him having to work so much. i am happy that our children are doing better every day. i have hid most of our troubles from them but of course they know that something is up when we keep selling our stuff and it just melts my heart when my little girl gives me her dollar she has been saving and tells me i can use it to buy food for us. i am so happy that my sweet boy Kevin is doing so much better since we got back into our own place again. His stuttering was getting so bad and now it is back to just a little bit here and there; i am sure now that his stuttering is because of stress which i think is easier to treat. Even Cameron is acting happier than i have seen him since we had to leave Fallon.
i am happy that i have a little sister who is always willing to help me if she can and gives her full support, never judging what i have to do in order to make it and never judging the mistakes i have made to get to where i am now. 

My constant companion. Love this guy.

My constant companion. Love this guy., a photo by elaine.pepsicola81 on Flickr.